if i could just open my mouth words would come..

if i could just say what i'm thinking...

*i'm visiting every day, not for help, but to see you smile at me. it makes me feel like the most cared about person on the planet, and even though i doubt you know my name, you smile at me. just for those two minutes i stop in with a question, and it makes my whole day.

*i appreciate your honesty but what you say he told you is utterly enraging. you're bf does NOT know anything, contrary to how he feels...please dont listen to him, or i will never be able to look you in the eye again.

*i can tell your lost. you are so scared and so confused and so unhappy. you've been put down all youre life and you dont see an end in site. youd never admit it tho, so i can never beg you not to leave us all behind.. honestly, if you did...i wouldnt be able to blame you.

*please dont forget me... you are fading quickly and i am terrified to loose you. please dont forget the fun we had. three generations on the couch, eating Kix and watching black & white movies..it was the best memory i have...hang on to it..

*i'm trying so hard and still you cant see, that i cant be you, i can only be me, and while its clear that's not enough, i'm still trying hard to stay tough, and in the end i'll know at least i did my best...