my heart is breaking..this is taking far too long

"if i wake up tommorw will you still be here? i dont know if you feel the way that i do..."
i feel like i am quickly reaching the end of the end...my heart has been cracking and loosing little peices with each and every day... i think the last crack has finally split, and my heart has fallen apart into nothing but a hot mess. you dont love me. you dont even like who i am. you wont get help you dont want help..i dont feel safe with you. all i ever wanted was a happy little family, and a beautiful love story. someone to have & hold & be the perfect wife for and i thought i had it but it is slipping away fast, the rope that holds you to me is slipping quickly and its burning my hands as i try to cling to it tightly. i've done everything i could possibly think of to hold on. but you're a different person now.. i dont even know you.. but i know you dont want this..us. so what do i do now?